Those Damn Pills (Rewrite)

Gotta take these meds
Straighten out my head
Looked in the mirror and said
You’re no good to me dead
No, no, no, you’re no good to me dead

Sittin’ in the doctor’s office
I feel I’ve lost control
How long have you been like this?
Hell, doc, I just don’t know

I take the script he gives me
Leave feeling lost and broke
Gotta run to the store to get
Some whiskey, eggs and Lexapro 

  (chorus)
  I swallow my comfort, drown in my fears
  Erase tomorrow and all those bitter years
  I swallow my comfort, forget all my fears
  Bathe in my sorrow, sleep in my tears

I don’t quite understand
This broken home
God knows I loved that man
But now I’m on my own

His lies and cheating ways
kept me up all night
So I take another damn pill
To make it all seem right

  (chorus)
  I swallow my comfort, drown in my fears
  Erase tomorrow and all those bitter years
  I swallow my comfort, forget all my fears
  Bathe in my sorrow, sleep in my tears

The kids need new shoes
And a momma with no blues
Gotta take these damn meds
To keep me straight in the head

Sentenced to die young
In this life I live
Guilty, cause I gave a damn
And he just never did.  

Gotta take these meds
Straighten out my head
Looked in the mirror and said
You’re no good to me dead
No, no, no, you’re no good to me dead

  (chorus)
  I swallow my comfort, drown in my fears
  Erase tomorrow and all those bitter years
  I swallow my comfort, forget all my fears
  Bathe in my sorrow, sleep in my tears

Those Damn Pills (Original)

Gotta take these meds
to keep me straight in the head
like the judge and jury said
you’re no good to me dead.

So I swallow my comfort,
sleep in my tears
bathe in my hurt
and forget my fears.

The kids need new shoes
and a mom with no blues
the dog needs a new dish,
these damn pills make me sick.

Don’t quite understand
how transgressors get off,
yet I feel I just got handed
a life sentence from this cop.

I plead my case,
the gavel comes down,
what an awful waste,
“Guilty, cause you gave a damn.”

Sentenced to die
here in this life I live
don’t ever ask why
he never did.

Sittin’ in this room
I shrug when the doc asks
“How long you been this blue?”
I think “awhile” as I remember back.

I take the script,
walk out feeling whipped
make a mental note
remember toothpaste, gin and soap.

I wake up suddenly,
can’t get back to sleep
take a Benadryl
to help with the
side effects of this
damn pill.

Finally I doze,
my body content
doused with emotion killers
and slaughtered lament.

I catch a clip,
from a dream that won’t quit,
that little girl smiling
in a polka dot dress
that looks like the pills
she’s been swallowing.