I’ve been out of sync the last couple of times at the gym. Today I was filled with self doubt. I looked in the mirror and saw everything wrong with me from the back boobs to my dry legs. I think I even said to myself, “You are 50! What the hell are you doing!?!”Continue reading “Keep Showing Up!”
While learning to do squats with weights I never thought I could lift, I was also learning to push through my heals and dig down deep into my gut to overcome my anger, bitterness and hurts.
Like fingerprints on windows forgotten or left to remember, your existence lingers, clinging to me as if still a newborn warm upon my chest. I dare not wipe away these sacred stains within my lifeline, your presence, your mark on this world, your fingerprints clutching my soul. Lovely reminders etched in glass to forever markContinue reading “Fingerprints”
And see just like that it’s gone – a fleeting thought, a whisper, the twilight and the dawn. In that moment before waking and in the shadows of sleep, were you truly there beside me or somewhere beyond my reach?
Truth is I wouldn’t be waiting on you if I had something better to do. This town is bringing me down, and too many losers keep coming around. So I wait around on you, ’cause I got nothing better to do. Truth is you’re only in my mind. The man you are isn’t the manContinue reading “Nothing Better to Do”
She remembers your name, that day in the rain, holding hands becoming friends. She welcomes your touch, misses you so much, knows she’s lost, to all she’s forgot. On a good day, she remembers. On a bad day, you do.
I had one of those aha moments between my tears and fits of rage. When it all adds up to them not respecting you much or simply being bored with the story on the page, let them go. But you love them, you say? Sure you do. It would be ridiculous to try to sayContinue reading “Aha!”
I’ve started my own mostly liquid diet: Protein shake, tea a few smarties, beer and pills to make me loopy. I’m gonna get skinny and addicted, so I can be selfish and not care who I hurt – and look good while I’m doing it.
I’d be better off a stranger than the person who sleeps in your bed and better off – off’d than someone who loved you like I did. You say it’s just how you are, and I guess I don’t understand. You knew how to show me love just long enough to get me where IContinue reading “A Circumstance”
Was it just an innocent smile that replaced years of laughter or an accidental touch that diminished our intimacy to this now forced response? Was it the freedom or just the way she “gets” you that reduced me to a passerby in our hallways? Was it the thrill, the secrecy, the mystery? Exactly what didContinue reading “What did it take?”